Wish I was there . .
My passport is ready and I can be packed in minutes.

17 January 2008

Life for Now

I want to write - really, I do. But I seem to be at a loss of words and thoughts for the moment. I appear to be in this new place where I just am. No reflection, no explanation, no planning, just getting by day to day, moment by moment.

I suppose this is related to the fact that I quit my job and I don't have any idea of what is next. Being a type A, control and planning freak, I should be mid-melt down as we speak. Call it what you want - a loss of reality, avoidance, shut down - whatever it is, I'm not panicked. It's a rather amused state of wondering why I haven't started hyperventilating. I know at some point I need a plan, a purpose, a raison d'etre, but I just don't have it right now and I can't be bothered to think about it. I'd take pictures and post them if I could make the camera work, but it too seems to be on break.

So this is it for now . . . maybe this afternoon, I'll have some insight but probably not.


RennyBA said...

Obviously you need a break and have come to a kind of turning point in your career. I thin its vice to stop op a bit and it might take more than a day or so to get the needed insight - I would say, take your time :-)

hexe said...

Renny - Thank you. I agree that I have reached some sort of turning point. For now, being home is the right answer and we are so fortunate to be able to have me around for the kids. Maybe when we figure out where we are going, I'll start figuring out what I want/need to do.

Claire said...

Write about changing jobs. Write it from different perspectives or in a different time. Writing what we know but changing it up usually gets my juices flowing.